Thursday, October 29, 2020


So many people sick and dying.

I am in the moderate risk group.

30X more likely to contract the virus.

I had a panic attack Monday night.

I decided not to work the polls.

27 people will. 

27!

That is in a precinct with 3,000

registered,

40% of whom have already 

voted.


 beautiful gloom

 


Wednesday, October 28, 2020

 ventifacts - things made by the wind

stine - human purposed

Rock - not


 sleepless night

breathing not good

should call the nurse

cancelled poll working

would like sleep

desire deep peace

instead, dread, a panic

all apace

run with this body

that hasn't forgiven this epidemic 

even if the mind believes otherwise

Thought

 The Galaxies, planets, continents adrift, sailing


Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

american prayer

Save us from temptation.

Deliver us from evil

and

bad teeth.

dreams

 Saw numbers as symbol manipulators

orchestrate the departure of indifference.

Saw flowers, news, phone calls, books.

Saints are resting

under the elms and next to yard signs.

Is this what

indeterminacy looks like?

Afterward,

pelagic thoughts.

Ought to write them down, but don't.

Mind overwhelmed by

"wash hands"

and

"vote".


 



 1

Roots

have been

killed -

fill,

patch,

caulk.

After,

walk

in

water,

wearing

new

shoes.

 

2

 

She

(sometimes)

bridges

interstices.

 

3

Copper

culture

altered

water.

 

4

Nemotodes?

Neem and toads?

Nemophila?

Nem szabad!

All the while,

a

dog begs.

 

5

K2

you

lie

underneath

two

mountains

a dry valley

and Huron's 

ice age

ledges.

 

6

wrote

"vote"

got a manual

labored

through it

wrote

note

"return

library books"

had coffee with...

then worked on...

Debated with myself -

" What will you do if ...."

 


 

Friday, October 16, 2020

 " To go  in search of what once was is to postpone the difficulty of living with what is."

Lopez, Horizon, p.400

 

A rosary 

of wallabies - in Walpiri a rufous hare-wallaby (Lagorchestes hirsutus) is a mala.

Lopez, Horizon, 403 

 

Malas and songlines

"...in interviews with Western field biologists  over the years, I've found that the issue of local extinction is, for many of them, not entirely clear. There are to many cases of animals being declared locally extinct only to have them turn up again. "singing" an animal back into existence is a metaphorical expression for some as-yet-umplumbed biological process of restoration, quaint only in the minds of those who believe they already know, or can discover, precisely how the world is hinged."

Lopez, Horizon, p.406

 

 

 

The need for greed contrition (Horizon)

 "The modern urge to turn a landscape into "what it once was", to make it "better" by eliminating "pests", to rid it of plants and animals that, because they didn't co-evolve with the environment, have a special capacity to devastate it, is a complex desire to appease - biologically, ethically, and practically. It is impossible, biologically, truly to "restore" any landscape. The reintroduction of plants and animals to a place suggests that though human engineering of one sort or another has "destroyed" a place, human engineering can bring it back, a bold but wrongheaded notion: humans aren't able to reverse the direction of evolution, to darn a landscape back together like a sweater that has unraveled. Restoration privileges some animals and plants over others, and therefore presents ethical problems identical to those one faces in examining any project of social engineering or any country's policies of  racial and ethnic discrimination. Finally, it is not possible to restore the soil chemistry of lands turned nearly lifeless by decades of irrigation, chemical fertilizers, and overgrazing.

Lopez, Horizon, pp396-397

Monday, October 12, 2020

"In every corner of the world there was such resplendent life, unexpected, integrated, anonymous."

Barry Lopez, Horizon, p.263 

 

Remember Lopez' habit of using a navigational map to chart notes, memories of site

experiences.

 

Perspective: 

Light as solar, otherworldly, light as underwater, submerged, limninal.  

 indeterminancy

Sunday, October 11, 2020

 Bob said

doing your work during this time

is a kind of protest.


Bells

knell deep

in the cool air

where

a plane

and a sparrow

narrow

space

that

soon

isn't enough

for the wind

or a car.

_______

Hear

a river

widen,

course

west.

Locks open. 

Voices,

doors

shudder.

____________

A

thrush

shows 

how,

with just a flicker,

she quickens

time,

opens

it

again.




Saturday, October 10, 2020

 w i d e     a t t e n t i o n

return to

the old ways of sleeping

the old ways of dreaming


Friday, October 9, 2020

My country under construction.

Early sounds of hammering, hollow as a bell, or striking thick like a log.

The sounds accompany troubled dreams.

I wonder as I wake up,

what we've become.

The hammering, as in bells, fists, clubs, clasping

hands.

The hammering bands round

the heart, round as beads, rosary recitations.

Empathic or fanatic?

We control the breath, the praying sounds.

And then, slowly, the hands, arms, our bodies smacking

to the ground around us.

The knees. The pleas.

My chest constricts.

The hammering, as in the voices of interruption,

the threats, the scenes of confusion, the violent memes.

What lies are within us? 

What lies are before us?

 


 

 

 

 

t

Thursday, October 8, 2020

Wednesday, October 7, 2020

 Eternal inflation predicts that time will end
Raphael Bousso a;b;c, Ben Freivogeld, Stefan Leichenauera; b and Vladimir
Rosenhaus a;b 

a Center for Theoretical Physics and Department of Physics University of California, Berkeley, CA 94720-7300, U.S.A.
b Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory, Berkeley, CA 94720-8162, U.S.A.
c Institute for the Physics and Mathematics of the Universe University of Tokyo, 5-1-5 Kashiwa-no-Ha, Kashiwa City, Chiba 277-8568, Japan
d Center for Theoretical Physics and Laboratory for Nuclear Science Massachusetts Institute of Technology, Cambridge, MA 02139, U.S.A.

 

Abstract:

 

Present treatments of eternal inflation regulate in finities 

by imposing a geometric cutoff . 

We point out that some matter systems 

reach the cutoff in finite time.

 

This implies 

a nonzero probability 

for a novel type of catastrophe.

 

According to the most successful measure proposals, 

our galaxy 

is likely to encounter the cuto ff


within the next 5 billion years.

 

 

 sick

spent a day in bed

tightness spread

across chest

 

I get tested Friday morning.