Monday, January 25, 2016

Sunday, January 24, 2016

painted boats
again and again and again


go to those houses that have not seen death
collect from each a seed
that loved ones may live again

Saturday, January 23, 2016

bat house
hawk hunting
black rib of river

Varela's intrinsic activity
Wm James' stream of consciousness

buddhism's subtle consciousness beyond the me

"luminous - to reveal or disclose"

"knowing - to perceive or apprehend" 

does it have a physical basis?

an   o p e n   question

...self experiential process that is subject to change.
evan thompson - waking dreaming being 2105

Upanishads sixth, seventh B.C.E. "first recorded map of consciousness -waking, dreaming,  deep and dreamless sleep
4th later - pure awareness

Friday, January 22, 2016

we wounded animals
forget anger no salve
but sources more wounds

love made me target
to turn away
without attachment

(second anniversary nears) grief reading

is exploratory
seldom an excavation

i think of insect
in nectar sit and flit
and beetled swagger
that veers tangent

breathless compilation of borrowed books
swallowed whole
unsavored,  no wine-dark coziness

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

the interrupted self
awakening from a dream

"engaging imaginatively as nearly unendurable"

the claustrophobia


the flood the flood the flood
h e r e

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Saturday, January 16, 2016


woman who
works hard at
is intelligent
designs a life

has a temper

and snores

Friday, January 15, 2016


this blinding light

that now

in deep winter

reaches noon.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

r i v e   3°

47° 51.959N  123° 52.221W  62 feet above sea level

a red rock on mossy log

one inch of silence u s a

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Saturday, January 9, 2016

moments of panic
as if out of the ark
and into water.

where I swim to -


near this  river

Thursday, January 7, 2016

mahjong solitaire

In Mahjong Solitaire, 144 tiles in traditional configurations (for example, the turtle) are deconstructed. Patience is key, and resolute quickness which, if faltering, nearly always results in loss. There are no algorithms. One is guessed into winning, not without risk of the unsolvable.* The goal is simple. Remove characters (4 of each) -  letters, bamboos, circles, dragons -  through winds (1 of each), seasons and flowers.

The game challenges distraction, frustration, confusion. Wins often numb and perplex, are seldom repeated as patterns scramble for unreadable novelty.

The tiles wash over you like a wave, flaunting their intricacy. Each game placidly preys on your belief in pattern, order, sense.

Dhamma says one may apply oneself to the unreadable, the inapplicable, the false. One may envy the success of wrong action.

But what is one to do with the inscrutability of right-mindedness, the hamstrung puzzlement of sincere failure?

*A sample of 10,000,000 games with the default layout, 'the turtle' (see right), which were analyzed in about 40 hours on a single processor thread, revealed that between 2.95 and 2.96 percent of the turtles cannot be solved even if peeking is allowed (

solitude's echo

moon waning crescent

thin ice skins
looking back without suffering
engaging without regret

does not end
does not end

Sunday, January 3, 2016

household goads

there are rules for
brooms and fishing poles
drinking and bathing
crossing rooms and altering stairs

there are rules for
table manners and children
dress codes, baking
retiring cars and debt

place one word

rule  rhythm


wash, cook, clean.

to be
one road
any road
a footstep
a ghost brush

to disappear
out of

one horizon

the shadow outside

is it you?

remembering to

m i l w a u k e e    r i v e r

3rd year of Mahjong

Each day for two years

removing 144 pieces in solitude.

Entered 2016

on the 3rd

at five o'clock in the morning

without it.