Sunday, December 29, 2013
folding the body
108
times
ill still
but rest has opened me
to thought
prayers
the body
given
more
than before
hibernaculum
this evening under it
integral
to this
is
is
that
yellow gray
that is
soil - a color of
a peculiar smudge of sky
specks of windblown dirt
or strong winter haze
days trying to paint
yellow gray
Friday, December 27, 2013
Ill
spent in bed and painting
I'm ill
rarely so
rill
erodes
until
gullied
streamed
river
loess
pronounced luss
south and west of us
yellow gray
wind blown
soil
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
daydream
Bob shoveling snow
Jasmine in Ubud
Anca's hole in the ceiling
under
milk skies
enter
emptiness
rescuing
them
from danger
and
confinement
I daydream about
those kinds of things
sick as a dog cause
I am sick as a dog
my brain is foggy
my decisions should not be trusted
therefore
I
am
free
of interpretation
imagining
light as a post to
and reply
texting
without the love letters
an echo
an echo
and then
stop
to begin again
as above
so below
I can't get on to
youtube
or access
peace
where I'm going next
it's on
the devil comes at four o'clock
we're ready for him
the question is
where are we going next?
dry sip
it isn't cost
it is just ignorance
inside the bottle
don't quote me
globe
snow
falling
on
Sunday, December 15, 2013
sleeping
beside me
how many breaths per minute?
soft full low long - 17, 18, varied
your fingertips are torn paper dry
skin cells die quickly this week
clammy to the lips
that kiss
you
a toxic piss spill
still
you're
at peace
alive
more boats
you read
Orwell on Kipling
(" I don't know much about him really")
I gild
green paper boats
the house is clean and quiet
more boats
this morning I bowed in my head
I heard the prajna paramitra
like the Milwaukee River
running black in my brain
free
boats
aren't thoughts
prayers
aren't thoughts
cancer
isn't thought
clean
quiet
clear
more boats
nowadays
I cannot count the times I have scratched this from essays
by Koreans and Chinese
Kuwaitis and Saudis
an occasional Brazilian
nowadays is the um of adverbs
and so condemned to fill the awkward pause of second language time
it's not fault but ubiquity
that irks
in this tongue we like to hedge as we imply
leave a little wiggle room
to forget the present
ignore time for signs
of
something
not
quite
here
first heavy snow
a white light foot of it
K's dream
second day after chemo
weak
sleeping most of the day
you say -
the best dream
was the one
where I made a lot of money
for my boss
George Washington
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Saints day
Saint Damascus, a man
a book in Latin
a lion a book another man
the window where
Jerome
stares out
impatient with
boys and snow
Fed on joy, wind, green apples.
Brought together
as honey and dust
as cusp above
so below
the point being
earth
and what it raised
rises
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
repeat
an open book
a closed book
a work in progress
not what we ask for
what we are given
your sadness will not go away
but you will go away
what legacy?
what grace?
my sister made a small hole in the universe
planted a seed
and grew
regret
comparison
yearning
are the three magi
of the heart
acceptance
clarity
gratitude
Friday, December 6, 2013
devotion
a gateway
and illusion
beads
count your blessings
give
even when
you are
unsure
mandela
died
95
95
95
arhat
on ice
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